Khushnud’s life story is a profound source of inspiration for me and others who have had the privilege of knowing her. The heart of her journey can be traced back to her schooling years, especially when she first encountered the song “Mien Hun Deepak Ek Chota Jal Raha
میں ہوں دیپک اک چھوٹا جل رہا”This line, which speaks of being a small light that burns steadily, profoundly influenced her mission in life, shaping her as a beacon of hope and guidance for many.
Even from a young age, Khushnud was inquisitive and deeply thoughtful. She was the kind of person who sought meaning and worth in situations where others might not see anything valuable. As a student, her thirst for knowledge was evident through the many questions
she posed in the classroom, always eager to delve deeper into subjects that piqued her interest. Her participation in special day worship services at school, where she sang with other girls, also highlighted her engagement and spirit.
In August 1962, my own journey brought me to Pakistan. Upon arriving, one of the first places my husband and I visited was the Methodist Church on Waris Road. It was here we met the then Rev. JS Qadir Buksh and his delightful wife, Florence. Their warm hospitality
extended to inviting us to dinner at their home, an experience that mirrored the familiar warmth of my past in India. It was during this visit that I first encountered Khushnud. She, along with her sister Shunila, was assisting their mother. Although our interaction was brief, I noticed the positive impression they both left on me, even at such a young age of about 12 or 13 years.
My career brought me to Lucie Harrison School, where I was tasked with teaching Christian Education. It was here that I reconnected with Khushnud, who was now in the 8th grade. Her brightness as a student was unmistakable. She had a keen intellect, often challenging
me with insightful questions that suggested a burgeoning curiosity about theological studies. Her talent wasn’t limited to academics alone; she also had a beautiful voice and frequently sang during special school chapel events, which endeared her to many.
Two years later, I moved to Karachi but fondly remembered my time in Lahore, especially the promising young Khushnud. News of her decision to study Theology in Singapore filled me with joy, as it was clear that she was destined for leadership. Recognising her unique
path, I was thrilled when her 50th anniversary of entering seminary was celebrated, marking her as the first woman to step into theological training boldly.
When I next met Khushnud, she had married Bishop Samuel Azariah and become a mother. Our paths crossed again at Synodical meetings in Lahore. Despite the challenges of caring for a young child, her composure and dedication were impressive. She not only managed
family responsibilities but also made significant contributions to discussions. Her husband’s trust and support in her capabilities shone through, allowing her to delve deeply into church activities and extend her role beyond conventional norms. This balance of
family and service was a testament to her exceptional managerial skills.
Khushnud’s role as a mother also mirrored her expert balancing act. Her daughters excelled academically, a testament to the environment she created at home. Remarkably, while supporting her children’s education, she pursued her doctorate, demonstrating an extraordinary ability to juggle multiple responsibilities.
Beyond personal achievements, Khushnud’s perspective on humanity is characterised by love and deep concern. This empathetic outlook is a cornerstone of her spiritual life and commitment to serving others. With a keen sense of observation, she consistently identifies areas where help is needed and seeks to address them, tackling difficult challenges with a determination to create positive change. Starting new initiatives, particularly in Pakistan and especially as a woman, presented significant challenges. Yet, Khushnud’s integrity and genuine concern for marginalised groups, especially differentlyabled individuals, propelled her forward.
Her efforts manifested in the creation of ‘Dar-Ul Khushnud’ in Karachi, the first of its kind dedicated to supporting individuals with special needs within the Church community. This initiative focused on providing care and aimed to empower individuals by instilling confidence and alleviating some of the pressures their families face. Building on this success, Khushnud established another centre, ‘Dar-Ul Musarrat’, in Lahore. These centers were born from her visionary leadership and faith—a faith that kept her strong and steady.
Her involvement didn’t stop at national borders. Khushnud actively represented Pakistani Church women on international platforms such as the World Council of Churches. Her participation in these forums brought invaluable insights and experiences back to the local community, empowering women by fostering self-confidence and encouraging them to strive for excellence.
Throughout her journey, Khushnud’s husband has stood by her as a partner and an unwavering supporter of her dreams and endeavours. His recognition of her talents and the space he provided for her to pursue them further fueled her drive to serve within the church
and beyond. This partnership exemplifies true collaboration—one that respects and nurtures individual strengths for a common purpose
One of Khushnud’s most admirable qualities as a leader is her ability to connect deeply with women from all walks of life. She understands their needs and communicates in ways that resonate personally, fostering trust and encouraging them to learn and grow. Her efforts have led to significant changes, benefiting not just individuals but the broader church community.
Khushnud’s preparation as a speaker is always meticulous. Each engagement reflects a tailored approach, making her talks relevant and impactful for her audiences. Her commitment to introducing new traditions within the Church and emphasising the presence of God in transforming the impossible into possible stands as a testament to her visionary leadership.
Reflecting on Khushnud’s life, I am grateful for her transformative contributions, which have created ripples of hope and progress across communities. Her life and legacy beautifully intertwine with the essence captured in Rumi’s poetry:
“That Eternal Candle
is the source of my shine
that eternal beauty
is behind my rhyme
without that candle
without that beauty
how could I ever have
my share in life.”
These lines elegantly summarize the enduring light Khushnud embodies, as captured in “Mien Hun Deepak Ek Chota Jal Raha – رہا جل چھوٹا ایک دیپک ہوں میں, “illuminating lives with her compassion, leadership, and unwavering faith. Her journey continues to be a powerful
source of inspiration, marked by a profound commitment to service and the betterment of humanity. As I offer my love, prayers, and most profound admiration, I am continually thankful for Khushnud’s presence and the many ways she has touched my life and the lives of countless others. Her story is a testament to personal achievement and a reminder of the impact that one dedicated individual can have on the world.
With my love and prayers to both of you
Mrs. Shirin Samuel
September 30, 2024